“…I see you there hanging on a tree
you bled and then you died and then you rose again for me…”
“…I see you there hanging on a tree
you bled and then you died and then you rose again for me…”
from the look of things it seems like i talk a lot about change and seasons in life and trying something new. my last two entries reflect on such things.
honestly because with the upcoming new baby, one in which we will find out the gender on friday, is a MAJOR change in our family. My husband and i will officially be out number. Even that doesnt scare me, i’ve taken care of a classroom of 12, 3-4 year olds, ones who i didn’t give birth to.
but i am winding down my time as a working mom and soon i will be yet again a SAHM. there was a time in our lives when we made the decision for me to go out and earn money for the family and God has been so faithful to bless us in our decision. Literaly blessing us at every turn and choice we made. i’ve learned so many GOOD lessons and it has shaped me i will never forget my time as a working mom. my clients are sad to see me go, it is very bitter-sweet.
however like i’ve been writing about change is coming. i’m not new to being a stay at home mom in fact, its where i thrive. Having 3 kids is going to be a fulltime job. gosh, having just 1 kid is a full time job. 3 kids under the age of 7 isn’t SO bad, it could be worse.
after some soul searching and praying, my heart right now is just longing to be at home and to be a wife and a mother and have that be my only responsibility. since i’ve started working my homemaking jobs have been a little neglected. i want to get back to that and i want to work on stuff around my home and sit down and teach and play with my kiddos.
i do believe that everything that i have learned through working and basically running my own business will not be in vain and will propel me into this next phase and just make me even better as a mom, wife, and home maker.
with all this excitement does come a little fear, of course, fear of the unknown is sometimes a little daunting. in all that is practical the money wont be there, but just as God was faithful to bless us in every step of the way in working. God will be faithful in every step of the way in NOT working. We will take that leap of faith and trust in him.
through this process we’ve learned to budget, we’ve learned to save and save some MORE, we’ve learned what is most important to us, and we’ve MOST importantly learned to rest in God and not stress over what the road will look like when we cant see it fully.
So here’s to next chapters!
Cheers to working and SAHM!
A big round of applause to The One who deserves all the glory and thanks!
Starting new habits will always looks differently for every one and the good thing about this is you don’t have to wait for a specific time or a place to try something new or better yourself. you can start right now in this very moment. I urge you TO try something new and make it a part of your every routine.
a few things id like you to remember when trying something new or even try bettering yourself:
for me one thing that is so very important is to know that I cannot do it in my own strength. I need God’s perfect beautiful grace to carry me through. I need HIS strength to lift me when I’m tried.
Even going through the shifts of new seasons and trying to figure out my purpose do I needs His wisdom and strength and remembering that it call works together for the good.
a lot has happened since the last time i wrote something. I’ve just been busy with family, busy being a mom, which is my calling in life and busy with work.
i haven’t really had time nor the desire to sit at the computer or have my face dug in social media. My facebook page has been kinda scarce so has my Instagram and this blog.
of course with hockey play offs in full swing we let this out of the bag. of course we couldn’t keep it a secret much longer. i show usually early and my morning sickness is the worst. i take it in stride and do what i can when i’m not feeling like i have to throw up. my house is a disaster and usually we have canned soup or sandwiches for dinner. it will pass and my energy level will be through the roof! much to the chagrin of my husband who will no doubt have lovely projects to do for the new baby.
We’ve been through ALOT in these few short months mainly not having a mode of transportation AT ALL. and i’m so thankful for my husband and i’m even MORE thankful for a God that has carried us through and hasn’t let us drown.
i’m not sure if I’ve talked about this before but i keep thinking about seasons and how sometimes you go through things for you to learn things that will carry you through the next season of life.
Pittsburgh weather is cold and snowing for SPRING. we had a few short days of very NICE weather and then it snowed the next day. People around here are dying for some weather that at least resembles spring.
I’ve decided to just ride this out. honestly we have no choice in the matter so no use complaining about it. i also know that summer WILL come. just not right now.
when life gives you 40 degree weather blow bubbles inside.
preferably on a sheet you can fold up and wash.
when life gives you a snow covered patio- create a chalkboard wall and bring the chalk inside.
well that’s about all i can do for now. back to my couch. (blaaaaaaaah)
*warning VERY long blog post*
so on our way to Life Group the other night me and Geno had the most interesting conversation. it sprung from a conversation i had with another person about faith and God himself.
it went as followed.
Me: geno, I have a question to ask you.
Me: how do you know God is real?
*he thought a little on every answer. He didn’t just say the first thing that came to his mind every time*
Geno: because I learn about Him.
Me: you learn about him. well okay lets pretend i’m a friend and i’m asking you these question what would you say? —-How do you know that what you are learning is real?
Geno: because it is in the bible.
Me: the bible? how do you know the bible is real and not fiction?
Geno: because the people in the bible were real people and they wrote stuff down.
Me: okay, but how do know that what you are learning is truth and not some lies people are teaching you.
Geno: because I praise him.
Me: you praise him?
Geno: yeah, like when we worship that’s what I mean.
Me: well that’s something you do if you believe in something but how do you know?
Geno: God gave us Jesus. He died on the cross for our sins.
Me: OH! so you believe in Jesus. how do you know Jesus is real? like- You praise him and believe Jesus died in your place because you’ve…..fill in the blank
Geno: Hmm…i’m not sure
Me: well did you see something or feel something? like how do you know God. is. real?
Me: miracles? like what?
Geno: like food, water, and heat!
Me: well, doesn’t your mommy and daddy work hard to provide all those things?
Geno: yeah but like first God did, like I think it was just water and then everything else….
Me: oh so like you believe He created the whole world
Me: okay so what would you say to me if I was your friend and I said, ” how do I believe in this Jesus too?”
Geno: You can come to my church and you say a prayer and ask Jesus into your heart.
Me: well can I do it? can you help me say the prayer?
Geno: kinda…I don’t know all the words.
Me: well can you just say the same prayer you said with your mommy or daddy? can you help me say what you remember?
Geno: yeah, i’ll try.
Me: so what do I do?
Geno: first you fold your hands…
Geno: okay “dear Jesus, (I repeated after him) come into my heart. I want to be a follower of you…..”ahhh….. I don’t know the rest
Me: (being mom) okay maybe say then- please forgive me of all the bad stuff I did and help me do better from this moment on!
*he repeated and then said amen*
Geno: but there’s one other thing you gotta do.
Me: there is??
Geno: you gotta get baptized.
Me: baptized…whats that?
Geno: its went you become a new person.
Me: did you get baptized?
Geno: no not yet.
Me: well why?
Geno: because I’m kinda still thinking about it.
Me: well why do you want to?
Geno: because I want all the old me and all the ‘bad’ stuff washed away and I want to be a NEW ME!
Me: who do I ask about being baptized?
Geno: mommy I don’t know that one…
Me: okay well you probably should talk to Pastor tell him you want to be baptized and he’ll set a date for it.
that’s basically when we pulled into the church. but I was totally astonished with the answers he was giving me. Mind you, he’s ONLY 7 so he never really answered my question of how he knows God is real. the answer I didn’t really want to get was, “because you and daddy tell him he’s real” never once did he say anything like that during the conversation.
I suspect a few things….He knows that God is real but he can’t explain why beucase he has the mind of a 7 year old. He just knows. you know that, “I know that I know” feeling or He really hasn’t had any ‘experiences’ to really anchor his faith yet.
of course… HE’S ONLY SEVEN!!!!!
part of me was wondering if I should even be having this conversation with a 7 year old. but at the same time this is honestly a normal conversation I would have with him, even though he is little. I always challenge him in his faith and make him think about what God could be saying. He knows that its a safe place and a safe conversation because i’m not going to make him feel ashamed if he doesn’t have the answers or even if he doesn’t hear anything or see anything.
raw moment here:
Jonathan and I have seen our friends and youth in church grow up to become adults and fall away. what ever happened to “train up a child??”
We are left with wonder and questions… mainly we question why are we different than the rest. we have doubts just like anybody else. why do we still believe? I don’t want this to happen to Geno. I know there’s really nothing I CAN do. Its Geno’s choice and God’s the only one who can change hearts and minds.
maybe at certain points in life you need to stop and have this conversation with your kids. Don’t just assume they understand or even believe just because they are going to church every sunday or even their WHOLE lives!
always point to God first. yes- we work hard to put food on the table, but the Lord is the ultimate provider and I do believe that Geno understands that.
what do you think? let me know your thoughts. give me some encouragement!
HAPPY VALENTINE’S DAY from pikachu!
i’ve been kinda amiss lately and i have a very good excuse (not that i need to give you one) but work has taken 90% of my time lately and the rest of it obvisously goes to my family so writing blog updates goes to the way side. however- in the bussiness of life i never stop thinking and i never stop learning.
in lue of happy heart’s day, where some see it as a halmart holiday, i chose to spread love where it needs it. Jonboy and i recently did something very unconvental to show someone we love, oh so dearly, how much she was loved and it left some scratching their heads. Now i’m not going to go into details because thats not the point and also i don’t feel the need to explain myself because in the end Jonathan and i accomplished what we set our hearts out to do but i was thinking…..
Jesus often did things unconventally. He regularly baffled and confused society. He wasn’t ashamed of doing so. if it affected one heart, if it spread the good news so others can see the joy,he did it! he always goes after the one. and it wont ever leave you the same.
i’ll take my cues from Him. The best Valentine’s day gift of all.
anyways those flowers in the picture above are from my little boy. he was out with his dadee and asked if he could get flowers for his momma.(he is so good to me).
love should always be in their air- you never know who’s watching.
So snow brought another 2 hour delay and it got Geno thinking…..
Welcome at the feast
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