God’s not dead

*warning VERY long blog post*

so on our way to Life Group the other night me and Geno had the most interesting conversation. it sprung from a conversation i had with another person about faith and God himself.

it went as followed.

Me: geno, I have a question to ask you.

Geno: okay….

Me: how do you know God is real? 

*he thought a little on every answer. He didn’t just say the first thing that came to his mind every time*

Geno: because I learn about Him. 

Me: you learn about him. well okay lets pretend i’m a friend and i’m asking you these question what would you say? —-How do you know that what you are learning is real?

Geno: because it is in the bible.

Me: the bible? how do you know the bible is real and not fiction? 

Geno: because the people in the bible were real people and they wrote stuff down. 

Me: okay, but how do know that what you are learning is truth and not some lies people are teaching you. 

Geno: because I praise him.

Me: you praise him? 

Geno: yeah, like when we worship that’s what I mean.

Me: well that’s something you do if you believe in something but how do you know?

Geno: God gave us Jesus. He died on the cross for our sins.

Me: OH! so you believe in Jesus. how do you know Jesus is real? like- You praise him and believe Jesus died in your place because you’ve…..fill in the blank

Geno: Hmm…i’m not sure

Me: well did you see something or feel something? like how do you know God. is. real?


Me: miracles? like what?

Geno: like food, water, and heat!

Me: well, doesn’t your mommy and daddy work hard to provide all those things?

Geno: yeah but like first God did, like I think it was just water and then everything else….

Me: oh so like you believe He created the whole world

Geno: yeah!

Me: okay so what would you say to me if I was your friend and I said, ” how do I believe in this Jesus too?”

Geno: You can come to my church and you say a prayer and ask Jesus into your heart.

Me: well can I do it? can you help me say the prayer?

Geno: kinda…I don’t know all the words.

Me: well can you just say the same prayer you said with your mommy or daddy? can you help me say what you remember?

Geno: yeah, i’ll try.

Me: so what do I do?

Geno: first you fold your hands…

Me: okay… 

Geno: okay “dear Jesus, (I repeated after him) come into my heart. I want to be a follower of you…..”ahhh….. I don’t know the rest

Me: (being mom) okay maybe say then- please forgive me of all the bad stuff I did and help me do better from this moment on!

*he repeated and then said amen*

Me: amen!

Geno: but there’s one other thing you gotta do.

Me: there is??

Geno: you gotta get baptized.

Me: baptized…whats that?

Geno: its went you become a new person.

Me: did you get baptized?

Geno: no not yet.

Me: well why?

Geno: because I’m kinda still thinking about it.

Me: well why do you want to?

Geno: because I want all the old me and all the ‘bad’ stuff washed away and I want to be a NEW ME!

Me: who do I ask about being baptized?

Geno: mommy I don’t know that one…

Me: okay well you probably should talk to Pastor tell him you want to be baptized and he’ll set a date for it. 


that’s basically when we pulled into the church. but I was totally astonished with the answers he was giving me. Mind you, he’s ONLY 7 so he never really answered my question of how he knows God is real.  the answer I didn’t really want to get was, “because you and daddy tell him he’s real” never once did he say anything like that during the conversation.

I suspect a few things….He knows that God is real but he can’t explain why beucase he has the mind of a 7 year old. He just knows. you know that, “I know that I know” feeling or He really hasn’t had any ‘experiences’ to really anchor his faith yet.

of course… HE’S ONLY SEVEN!!!!!

part of me was wondering if I should even be having this conversation with a 7 year old. but at the same time this is honestly a normal conversation I would have with him, even though he is little. I always challenge him in his faith and make him think about what God could be saying. He knows that its a safe place and a safe conversation because i’m not going to make him feel ashamed if he doesn’t have the answers or even if he doesn’t hear anything or see anything.

raw moment here:

Jonathan and I have seen our friends and youth in church grow up to become adults and fall away. what ever happened to “train up a child??”

We are left with wonder and questions… mainly we question why are we different than the rest. we have doubts just like anybody else. why do we still believe? I don’t want this to happen to Geno. I know there’s really nothing I CAN do. Its Geno’s choice and God’s the only one who can change hearts and minds.

maybe at certain points in life you need to stop and have this conversation with your kids. Don’t just assume they understand or even believe just because they are going to church every sunday or even their WHOLE lives!

always point to God first. yes- we work hard to put food on the table, but the Lord is the ultimate provider and I do believe that Geno understands that.

what do you think? let me know your thoughts. give me some encouragement!


when love came down

HAPPY VALENTINE’S DAY from pikachu! 

i’ve been kinda amiss lately and i have a very good excuse (not that i need to give you one) but work has taken 90% of my time lately and the rest of it obvisously goes to my family so writing blog updates goes to the way side. however- in the bussiness of life i never stop thinking and i never stop learning. 

in lue of happy heart’s day, where some see it as a halmart holiday, i chose to spread love where it needs it.  Jonboy and i recently did something very unconvental to show someone we love, oh so dearly, how much she was loved and it left some scratching their heads. Now i’m not going to go into details because thats not the point and also i don’t feel the need to explain myself because in the end Jonathan and i accomplished what we set our hearts out to do but i was thinking….. 

 Jesus often did things unconventally. He regularly baffled and confused society. He wasn’t ashamed of doing so.  if it affected one heart, if it spread the good news so others can see the joy,he did it! he always goes after the one. and it wont ever leave you the same.

i’ll take my cues from Him. The best Valentine’s day gift of all. 
anyways those flowers in the picture above are from my little boy. he was out with his dadee and asked if he could get flowers for his momma.(he is so good to me).

pan handle trail

love should always be in their air- you never know who’s watching.

2 hour delays

Winter months in PA bring 2 hour delays and school closing. needless to say my son is always thrilled. 

i don’t mind them. i enjoy being around my kiddos so him staying home isn’t a bad thing.

However, he gets use to not going to school or not going in early to the point where he got out of bed at his usual time only to come in and tell me, “mom, ahh…i’m to tired to go to school.”

and then goes downstairs.

PAH-HAHAHA …. he cracks me up.

its rare now a days that i have time in the mornings to do anything…at all. including drinking coffee in an actual coffee mug instead of a travel mug. so this is kinda nice. lol

i was just thinking how before probably last winter at the earliest, i was so nervous driving in the snow. i would white knuckle the steering wheel and pray that my employer would cancel work so i don’t have to drive in it. 

now i’m usual out in the middle of it and i could care less about whats on the road. i haven’t figured out what changed though, maybe its my age or experience?

  who knows, i have people depending on me so i feel the need to not let them down, thats the bottom line for me. so maybe that’s what keeps me going on snowy days?
anyways- i’m still in my pjs and my coffee needs refreshing. stay warm my friends!

Snow days

oh to be like Marshall and have zoomies through life- to have a frisbee in your face and to not worry about crashing into a tree…..
seriously though,  my dog is a goof, he LOVES the snow and loves to herd sleds.

The recent snow storm dumped about 6 inches of the white stuff on top of the layer of ice. This was a day after we had 60 degree weather and then record breaking subzero tempts the week before. (i might be exaggerating a little on the subzero)

CRAZY…I know… (but we are use to it)

We love the snow. Sled ridding was always a favorite past time of mine and Geno enjoys it too.

Ella..not so much… but she doesn’t like going down slides at the park either. She is very content staying on solid ground walking around the paths I shoveled through the snow like road ways, on the patio. She also likes to take a badminton racket and sift the snow. 20180113_122721

Geno is very good at maneuvering his sled down our yard. He starts at some point in the woods and makes it past the trees to the driveway.

I am impressed cause i’m certain that id either

1. bail out half way.

2. crash into something or someone.


I use to play out in the snow forever as a kid. the snow for some reason makes you feel invincible. like you can just jump and dive on it and not get hurt. but if you tried doing that without snow it will hurt. I always found that interesting. that’s exactly what geno did when we first went out. He just jumped and dived right into it without batting an eye. (mind you its only 6 inches, not 6 feet) 20180113_122715 man oh man though, my mom would always have hot water boiling for me so I can get some hot chocolate. Me and my sister would take bread and dip it in our hot chocolates. any one else do this?

unfortunately, my son doesn’t like chocolate milk so he wouldn’t like hot chocolate, but he does enjoy warm milk which I gladly put in a coffee mug its almost the same. right?


one thing I dislike about the snow is the fact that we are basically snowed in until some one comes and digs us out.

our driveway is a steep but short hill. enough to cause panic when sliding down it onto a busy road or not being able to get back up it after you’ve slid. down. said. driveway.

we make due. you know you have to. the world doesn’t stop when you have issues like that. you deal with it. You learn to cope.

I’ve gotten pretty good at timing the traffic and WEEEEEE! AWAY WE GO! that was the easy part.

I’ve also gotten good at knowing where to salt and shovel (when i’m on my own) on the driveway to get the right traction to take a running start and gunning it to the top!

ahh….fun times.. fun times..



family times

I’ve had a lot of down time lately. its nice when the holidays roll around and you’ve got no work or school. 20171225_230309

Jonathan and i had plans to just basically do nothing. go no where. and just simply be at home with the kids.

we don’t ever get that any more we’re always anywhere but home and usually the kids are  bounced from one house to another. i feel that’s just not good for kids to be rushed about all the time.

one night we made pizza. on a whim i was like lets make pizza with the kids. turned out to be a lot of fun and my picky kids, kinda-sorta ate the pizzas they made.

they mostly ate while we were constructing our pizzas.

As a mom i try to make memories with my kids. in this fast paced world we live in things are a lot different than when i was a kid (that wasn’t that long ago). i don’t feel like my parents rushed about or even had to TRY and put memories down in the book.

maybe i am forcing it…. but yet again so many things take our attention even when we are at home, no one is really doing things together any more.

This year Jonathan and i plan on creating some good habits. some Godly habits too.

our family focus for this year is Stewardship. (more in-depth on that later) that encompasses practically everything we want to get better at and take better care of.





our bodies and minds (health)