God’s not dead

*warning VERY long blog post*

so on our way to Life Group the other night me and Geno had the most interesting conversation. it sprung from a conversation i had with another person about faith and God himself.

it went as followed.

Me: geno, I have a question to ask you.

Geno: okay….

Me: how do you know God is real? 

*he thought a little on every answer. He didn’t just say the first thing that came to his mind every time*

Geno: because I learn about Him. 

Me: you learn about him. well okay lets pretend i’m a friend and i’m asking you these question what would you say? —-How do you know that what you are learning is real?

Geno: because it is in the bible.

Me: the bible? how do you know the bible is real and not fiction? 

Geno: because the people in the bible were real people and they wrote stuff down. 

Me: okay, but how do know that what you are learning is truth and not some lies people are teaching you. 

Geno: because I praise him.

Me: you praise him? 

Geno: yeah, like when we worship that’s what I mean.

Me: well that’s something you do if you believe in something but how do you know?

Geno: God gave us Jesus. He died on the cross for our sins.

Me: OH! so you believe in Jesus. how do you know Jesus is real? like- You praise him and believe Jesus died in your place because you’ve…..fill in the blank

Geno: Hmm…i’m not sure

Me: well did you see something or feel something? like how do you know God. is. real?

Geno: MIRACLES!

Me: miracles? like what?

Geno: like food, water, and heat!

Me: well, doesn’t your mommy and daddy work hard to provide all those things?

Geno: yeah but like first God did, like I think it was just water and then everything else….

Me: oh so like you believe He created the whole world

Geno: yeah!

Me: okay so what would you say to me if I was your friend and I said, ” how do I believe in this Jesus too?”

Geno: You can come to my church and you say a prayer and ask Jesus into your heart.

Me: well can I do it? can you help me say the prayer?

Geno: kinda…I don’t know all the words.

Me: well can you just say the same prayer you said with your mommy or daddy? can you help me say what you remember?

Geno: yeah, i’ll try.

Me: so what do I do?

Geno: first you fold your hands…

Me: okay… 

Geno: okay “dear Jesus, (I repeated after him) come into my heart. I want to be a follower of you…..”ahhh….. I don’t know the rest

Me: (being mom) okay maybe say then- please forgive me of all the bad stuff I did and help me do better from this moment on!

*he repeated and then said amen*

Me: amen!

Geno: but there’s one other thing you gotta do.

Me: there is??

Geno: you gotta get baptized.

Me: baptized…whats that?

Geno: its went you become a new person.

Me: did you get baptized?

Geno: no not yet.

Me: well why?

Geno: because I’m kinda still thinking about it.

Me: well why do you want to?

Geno: because I want all the old me and all the ‘bad’ stuff washed away and I want to be a NEW ME!

Me: who do I ask about being baptized?

Geno: mommy I don’t know that one…

Me: okay well you probably should talk to Pastor tell him you want to be baptized and he’ll set a date for it. 

 

that’s basically when we pulled into the church. but I was totally astonished with the answers he was giving me. Mind you, he’s ONLY 7 so he never really answered my question of how he knows God is real.  the answer I didn’t really want to get was, “because you and daddy tell him he’s real” never once did he say anything like that during the conversation.

I suspect a few things….He knows that God is real but he can’t explain why beucase he has the mind of a 7 year old. He just knows. you know that, “I know that I know” feeling or He really hasn’t had any ‘experiences’ to really anchor his faith yet.

of course… HE’S ONLY SEVEN!!!!!

part of me was wondering if I should even be having this conversation with a 7 year old. but at the same time this is honestly a normal conversation I would have with him, even though he is little. I always challenge him in his faith and make him think about what God could be saying. He knows that its a safe place and a safe conversation because i’m not going to make him feel ashamed if he doesn’t have the answers or even if he doesn’t hear anything or see anything.

raw moment here:

Jonathan and I have seen our friends and youth in church grow up to become adults and fall away. what ever happened to “train up a child??”

We are left with wonder and questions… mainly we question why are we different than the rest. we have doubts just like anybody else. why do we still believe? I don’t want this to happen to Geno. I know there’s really nothing I CAN do. Its Geno’s choice and God’s the only one who can change hearts and minds.

maybe at certain points in life you need to stop and have this conversation with your kids. Don’t just assume they understand or even believe just because they are going to church every sunday or even their WHOLE lives!

always point to God first. yes- we work hard to put food on the table, but the Lord is the ultimate provider and I do believe that Geno understands that.

what do you think? let me know your thoughts. give me some encouragement!

 

Snow days

oh to be like Marshall and have zoomies through life- to have a frisbee in your face and to not worry about crashing into a tree…..
seriously though,  my dog is a goof, he LOVES the snow and loves to herd sleds.

The recent snow storm dumped about 6 inches of the white stuff on top of the layer of ice. This was a day after we had 60 degree weather and then record breaking subzero tempts the week before. (i might be exaggerating a little on the subzero)

CRAZY…I know… (but we are use to it)

We love the snow. Sled ridding was always a favorite past time of mine and Geno enjoys it too.

Ella..not so much… but she doesn’t like going down slides at the park either. She is very content staying on solid ground walking around the paths I shoveled through the snow like road ways, on the patio. She also likes to take a badminton racket and sift the snow. 20180113_122721

Geno is very good at maneuvering his sled down our yard. He starts at some point in the woods and makes it past the trees to the driveway.

I am impressed cause i’m certain that id either

1. bail out half way.

2. crash into something or someone.

 

I use to play out in the snow forever as a kid. the snow for some reason makes you feel invincible. like you can just jump and dive on it and not get hurt. but if you tried doing that without snow it will hurt. I always found that interesting. that’s exactly what geno did when we first went out. He just jumped and dived right into it without batting an eye. (mind you its only 6 inches, not 6 feet) 20180113_122715 man oh man though, my mom would always have hot water boiling for me so I can get some hot chocolate. Me and my sister would take bread and dip it in our hot chocolates. any one else do this?

unfortunately, my son doesn’t like chocolate milk so he wouldn’t like hot chocolate, but he does enjoy warm milk which I gladly put in a coffee mug its almost the same. right?

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one thing I dislike about the snow is the fact that we are basically snowed in until some one comes and digs us out.

our driveway is a steep but short hill. enough to cause panic when sliding down it onto a busy road or not being able to get back up it after you’ve slid. down. said. driveway.

we make due. you know you have to. the world doesn’t stop when you have issues like that. you deal with it. You learn to cope.

I’ve gotten pretty good at timing the traffic and WEEEEEE! AWAY WE GO! that was the easy part.

I’ve also gotten good at knowing where to salt and shovel (when i’m on my own) on the driveway to get the right traction to take a running start and gunning it to the top!

ahh….fun times.. fun times..

 

 

family times

I’ve had a lot of down time lately. its nice when the holidays roll around and you’ve got no work or school. 20171225_230309

Jonathan and i had plans to just basically do nothing. go no where. and just simply be at home with the kids.

we don’t ever get that any more we’re always anywhere but home and usually the kids are  bounced from one house to another. i feel that’s just not good for kids to be rushed about all the time.

one night we made pizza. on a whim i was like lets make pizza with the kids. turned out to be a lot of fun and my picky kids, kinda-sorta ate the pizzas they made.

they mostly ate while we were constructing our pizzas.

As a mom i try to make memories with my kids. in this fast paced world we live in things are a lot different than when i was a kid (that wasn’t that long ago). i don’t feel like my parents rushed about or even had to TRY and put memories down in the book.

maybe i am forcing it…. but yet again so many things take our attention even when we are at home, no one is really doing things together any more.

This year Jonathan and i plan on creating some good habits. some Godly habits too.

our family focus for this year is Stewardship. (more in-depth on that later) that encompasses practically everything we want to get better at and take better care of.

time

family

money

things

our bodies and minds (health)

 

…happiness and cheer…

I’ve been a little MIA as of late. Its just that time of year, but I wanted to stop and thank everyone who reads, or follows, or comments, or even shares this blog.

it is truly an honor! For people who may not know me personally to take the time to read it and follow me. I do look forward to seeing your  name pop up on my phone or my computer.

and I think its amazing to see all the different countries represented on the world map when I check my stats. THATS SO cool to me! blows my mind however that any one would want to follow little ol’ me and even take interest in what my mind may say or wonder too.

The Advent season is coming to an end and my church is wrapping its advent teachings all entitled “With Us” we did some AMAZING things for “JOY-With Us” which included balloons and dancing and KIDS!

When I think about joy there are a few things that come to mind.

  1. my kids. or any kid at that matter. they are such a blessing to me and so innocent. They don’t worry about what we adults worry, they just simple…be.
  2. colors. I think about how some days, my daughter is nothing sort of a rainbow…. like this morning she had SO many colors on in an array of so many different patterns it made me so happy.
  3. laughter. I always said that an outward sign of joy was laughter. like a baby’s laugh. that unbridled laugh when something is just SO funny! Don’t hold back.

We recently had a DIY photo session. Probably one of the most fun times I’ve ever had. it brought this VERY busy family together for a few short hours and we did nothing but simple be together and my dear friend caught it all on her phone.

Well I did bring some props and a few photo ideas in mind but really I just wanted it to be genuine and real life. I believe that’s exactly what I got.

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And you know what, these photos give me SO much joy when I think of how we went to our favorite park and played around in the snow.

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however it’s all fun and games until someone falls on the ground or gets plastered in the head with a freak snowball hit.

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anyways. Since I probably won’t post much until after the new year. I just wanted to thank you all and from the bottom of my heart I hope you have a very merry Christmas and very happy new year!

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Christmas time is here…

OMG…back to the daily grind…kind of..well, at least for Geno and Jonathan, I got one more day.20171124_155553

Our Thanksgiving break was AMAZING! I don’t believe we spent that much time together in a LONG time. It was so nice and relaxing……ahhhhhhhhh…. Any who, I promised a few more pictures.

So lets start off by saying, we have this silly little tradition that we randomly started way back when that we wear festive hats while decorating the house for Christmas. I don’t know how it started but we each have a hat to wear, Geno isn’t so much into the whole tradition, Ella seems to like it.

Setting things up seemed to be more challenging this year. Little Hands were in EVERYTHING and EVERYWHERE. 20171124_131940

AND of course she was proud of herself.

I may say, that is NOT the tree we ended up putting up. For some reason pre-lit trees don’t last long in this house, maybe its where we store them, wh20171125_011605o knows, but we ended up going out TWICE and 3 different stores and buying ANOTHER tree (so help me) headache #2 after Ella,

I fell in love with this 7 foot beauty, who’s not pre-lit I may add…

if anyone is wondering, Wally World (Wal-Mart) does have the best prices on Christmas trees.

I decided oh so randomly, which i’m good at, of doing a brown paper packages tied up with string…. cause….

oh you know you want to sing it!

so most of my pictures around the house are wrapped in such a manner. I kinda like the look, if I do say so myself.

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with a few more decorations added and a little upstairs in each room we are in full Christmas season mode!

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isnt he adorable

Moosey always comes out and ONLY at Christmas time for the sake of our sanity. He sings “it’s the most wonderful time of the year.” and we heard it about 100 times in the first 2 minutes he was out. this is probably the only thing Geno will NOT share with Ella and its causing a headache (#3) so i’m sure Moosey will have company in the attic during his off months. Stay tuned for that.

This Thanksgiving has taught me what it means to be grateful and how to live it out in everyday life. This Christmas season is for showing your gratitude and I plan to do so.

Charlie Brown gets quoted a lot around our house, so does Star Wars and the Muppets…I digress…

there’s one quote he says that I like the most,

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Hug your loved ones tight.

life is short.

 

 

 

Happy Thanksgiving y’all!

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I have so much to be thankful for, even though this year has been probably the hardest ever, for us.

I do try to wrap my brain around what it actually means to be thankful.

Gratitude is a noun.  It describes the state of feeling appreciative for a kindness which has been granted or given, and (very often) of wanting to give something in return. There’s no verb form of gratitude.  The act of showing it (adjective = to be grateful)—or, in other words, the verb meaning ”to show gratitude”—is to thank.

There is a little church in my area that has a saying outside on their sign that says,

“Gratitude turns what we have into enough.”

I read it every time we go past trying to grasp what that would look like living it out. In this day an age, people are always wanting more, wanting new, wanting the NEXT best thing. Its hard not to get sucked into that frame of mind. And trying to teach little minds that when you yourself is trying to learn makes it a tad bit more challenging.

Anyways, I am grateful for everything that has been given to me.

I cooked this year and it was probably one of my best Thanksgiving dinners to-date! I don’t get to cook Thanksgiving dinner often because I have family on both sides that beg for our company every year. This year was simply SO good, fun filled, peaceful (no joke), headache filled (yes- I said that), I can just tell that memories were made with my kids that they won’t forget.

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we did so much in such short little time. We put up our Christmas decorations which proved to be MORE challenging than previous years. My daughter has been a little ball of independent terror tornado and it comes in the form of climbing on things to get what she wants, climbing OUT of things **ahem** her crib, and drawing on things that don’t include paper. I don’t know what I’m going to do with her. that’s for another post, I guess.

Jonathan took Geno out scouting for opening day on Monday. that’s exciting! Geno isn’t ready to go riffle hunting yet, but he gets to spend time with his dad and time is a precious thing right now in our busy lives. I am SO grateful that Geno still have a few more days off of school to enjoy some more of this wonderful holiday break.

I have loads more pictures to upload, but I’ll save them for later. For now I’ll leave you with this one.

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On this day….

15 years ago I was 15.
20 years ago I was 10.

and the thought of that had20171025_151231 me in a bit of a panic a few days ago. I’m fine now. I think… *twitch*twitch*

 

I’m trying to collect my thoughts on this particular day. Taking a moment of silence for my sanity that has left me this week.

I’ve been trying not to define the week as an absolute terrible one. In the mist of, first time dentist appointments, loosing teeth, and turning 30…. ALL good things.

we’ve also had the loss of manners, love, respect, and obedience. So we’ve taken away the tv.

its quite interesting….NO tv for X amount of time sure makes for a more quiet evenings in the Clark house.

On top of all of that, I’ve never had to clean up so much puke IN MY LIFE then I had this whole week! my kids couldn’t hit the broad side of a barn door if they were standing a foot in front of it.

so help me….”sanity! where art thou?”

anyways- My life. It is a good one. I’ve been blessed and I try not to take anything for granted. I try to stay teachable and childlike. I try to work hard and stay open for the randomness in life. I try to drink as much coffee and I try to drink it with friends.

Its strange, my life verse is coming to my mind as this moment. I got this along time ago from a very special important person in my church AND in my life.

Proverbs 22:17-21

Pay attention and turn your ear to the sayings of the wise;
    apply your heart to what I teach,
18 for it is pleasing when you keep them in your heart
    and have all of them ready on your lips.
19 So that your trust may be in the Lord,
    I teach you today, even you.
20 Have I not written thirty sayings for you,
    sayings of counsel and knowledge,
21 teaching you to be honest and to speak the truth,
    so that you bring back truthful reports
    to those you serve?

my goal for today is just to enjoy it. spend it with the ones I love and not rush about. Try to enjoy the crazy, chaotic, beautiful, organized mess I call my life.

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